There have been some big changes going on inside of me. I would say that, right now, I am probably the best that I've been since my problems came to a head last year. I've been stimulating myself in very positive ways. I've set goals and standards that I know that I can meet. I don't feel anxious every moment of every day. I haven't had even ( Read more... )

I am making greater attempts to regain myself by returning to my roots and surrounding myself with things that I feel reflect the core of my personality ( Read more... )

It isn't so much that I've fundamentally changed, as it is that my perception has been altered by what I belief to be an alternate reality -- though it is clearly the same reality that I've always lived in ( Read more... )

I have had a rather odd taste in music lately. I suppose that I just don't care about trying to prove anything to anyone with my musical interests -- so hiding guilty pleasures be damned. Music is helping guide me on a spiritual journey to the center of Katrina. That being said, here is my completely un-goth, bizarre playlist ( Read more... )

And if I were to bat an eye
I’d watch it slip
And pass me by
I’d drift away
out to sea
And let the waves
bury me*
I have not had a very good couple of days mentally.  Physically, I'm sick with a viral sinus infection.  How do I know that it's viral?  Because Trenton has the same illness. I have been battling a sore throat, congestion, blocked ear, ( Read more... )

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So, this whole fuckwhatotherpeoplethink thing is working out pretty well. It feels so nice to be free, for the most part, of worry about what other people think. I think it, over the years, stunted my development as an independent person. It isn't that other people's opinions would affect me so much that I'd change behavior [though that was the ( Read more... )

Methinks my libido is pretty healthy [read: active] at the moment. Last night was so bad that, in between verbal/physical expressions of "gettheeffintothebedroom"/touching of naughty places, I made a iTunes playlist called "songstoeffto." Tonight is not much different. And you know, maybe, in the past, I would show some sort of restraint about ( Read more... )

I've been naked in front of my friends a lot recently. [spanking, various drinking related times/strip poker games] And even though I really hate my body, for the most part, it makes me feel good to know that at least I'm comfortable enough to do that -- even though I don't think it's pretty to look at as a whole, I don't worry all that much about ( Read more... )

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